I don’t know if its because I’m turning 59 years old (short of 60….yikes!) this year or that I’m just at a point in my life that I’m doing a lot of reflecting of what my life has been and what the future may hold for me, but here it goes. Observations and thoughts of my younger self via a letter to me.
You have been through a lot and have learned a lot in your life. You seem to have made it through without hurting yourself but what were you thinking when it came to boys? You would pass on the nice, good boys for the bad boys, boys that would take advantage of you and not really care about you. Maybe it was just the thrill of it all and knowing that you got to be with the guy that all your friends wanted to be with. So glad you got over that phase.
I really have no regrets, except that I wish you had spent more time on your education. You got through two years of college, but I genuinely believe that if you had gone further than an Associates Degree, you would have figured out your career path, not to mention you would have more money in your bank account. I also believe that everything happens for a reason and that all the choices you make for yourself lead you to where you are in life. We are the choices that we make.
You know, you could have spent more time with mom and dad. I know that they were a little hard on you, but they did the best they could with what they knew. Parents then are so different than parents now. Parents these days are more open to allowing their children to explore and figure out what their life passion is. Something that I hope I have allowed my daughters to do.
I’m so happy that you learned to listen to your intuition at an early age. This is especially important for women. If something doesn’t feel right, don’t do it, walk away or speak up. I’ve tried to instill this in my daughters along with paying attention to their bodies. I guess that was my way of teaching them self-care.
You should have figured a way to travel the world sooner. There’s so much to explore and so many people to meet. I would still love to have a friend in every country that I visit. Travel will definitely be a big part of my future.
You are a creative, curious and soulful person. I’m so glad that you haven’t lost that about yourself. Let’s continue to change, grow and look forward to what life has to offer.
Lots of love,
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